A good friend of mine has recently started a blog that I follow religiously. I think that seeing her "spill her guts" and become "raw" is perhaps a reason why I am picking this back up again. I had started this last year because...well, if we're telling the truth...I guess I was lonely. When you stay at home with your child and nanny two others...it's hard to get adult conversation in there. I wanted to bear my soul and tell others how I felt...perhaps to see if they might relate to me a bit. It started to be overwhelming and I was struggling to find the time to write. For all of you out there that may think that stay at home mom's do nothing and have a very easy job, you would be VERY wrong. It's the hardest job I have ever done in. my. life.
Anywho, I just wanted to write and say that I am back. I am going to make a very cautious effort to start writing and "baring my soul" again.
Friday, December 28, 2012
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
Living the healthy lifestyle
I haven't made it a secret that I have been trying to live my life healthier. There are things that I need to do in life that this body I currently have won't allow me to do. I have been eating so much better, drinking water, exercising, laughing...all of these things are improving my health and self esteem to boot!
I recently had a visit with my doctor where I learned some, not so great news. I guess, in my heart of hearts, I knew it was coming. I have had stomach problems for at least 3 years now and have been in complete denial of how serious these problems really are. Anywho...I'm not one to spill out everything on the internet and I won't start now, but the tests that I have been through will be helping me learn what is going on and how to fix the problems. Am I weird for being a smidgen excited about all this? I will finally have some answers and be on the road to a healthier lifestyle!
Staying with the theme of "health", I would like to say that Aiden is currently on the road to a healthy life as well! He still get's little colds and what not every once in a while, like your average child, but for the most part he is doing SO much better! This makes his mommy and daddy VERY happy. We are still having some problems with his allergies right now, but we are testing him on Thursday of this week and should have some answers soon :-)
So, the Trumbo's will definitely be feeling better very, very soon and those things that I mentioned I wanted to do....they aren't so hard to reach now!
I recently had a visit with my doctor where I learned some, not so great news. I guess, in my heart of hearts, I knew it was coming. I have had stomach problems for at least 3 years now and have been in complete denial of how serious these problems really are. Anywho...I'm not one to spill out everything on the internet and I won't start now, but the tests that I have been through will be helping me learn what is going on and how to fix the problems. Am I weird for being a smidgen excited about all this? I will finally have some answers and be on the road to a healthier lifestyle!
Staying with the theme of "health", I would like to say that Aiden is currently on the road to a healthy life as well! He still get's little colds and what not every once in a while, like your average child, but for the most part he is doing SO much better! This makes his mommy and daddy VERY happy. We are still having some problems with his allergies right now, but we are testing him on Thursday of this week and should have some answers soon :-)
So, the Trumbo's will definitely be feeling better very, very soon and those things that I mentioned I wanted to do....they aren't so hard to reach now!
Friday, April 27, 2012
When there is nothing left to do but pray...
Have you ever felt helpless? I have always known what this meant, but I recently took a look in the dictionary to see what the true definition was. It said, "Unable to defend oneself or to act without help." The other definition was one word, "Uncontrollable." I feel that the latter is a better definition of how I feel. Out of control. Not able to help.
As parents, we feel this way about so many things. When your child is sick you want so badly to remove their pain and just take it yourself. Whether it be physical or emotional pain...you just want to make it better. Aiden has been having a lot of trouble with his allergies. We thought that we were kind of keeping things in good condition until a week ago. I noticed a rash covering his body. Truthfully, this didn't concern me at first because he has always been prone to eczema. We would normally give him a bath, put his lotion on, send him to bed and in the morning all would be well. This time I got a little concerned because instead of getting better, it started to get worse. I took him to the doctor and of-course I left feeling so much better with a plan of action. You have to realize, I have all the faith in the world in his doctor and have never once second guessed her. That's just our story...unfortunately there are so many others that are so much worse than ours.
I have been seeing and hearing so many heart wrenching stories lately. Today, a mother lost her son in Afghanistan. He has been over there fighting for our freedom and now, the next time she will see him will be in his casket. I can't imagine how this mother must feel. I can't begin to put myself in her situation. I am a Christian and believe in God. I know that I would eventually find peace....but what about the days before? Are you angry, sad, in disbelief....uncontrollable.
Another story I read had an expectant mother getting her room all prepared for her child. She had bought so many things in preparation, as we all do. Her precious baby came to her stillborn. That sweet life went to heaven far too soon.
What about the parent that has a child addicted to drugs or alcohol? They feel completely helpless. I can say this from seeing it first hand....it's an uncontrollable sadness to NOT know how to help your loved one. Your child! The person that you gave birth to, that person that you watched learn to walk and talk....they are now struggling and fighting for their lives and you have to sit back and watch that destruction.
And as parents we will try everything in our power, using all resources available, to try to save that life. The only advice that I have for myself and all other parents is, when you feel completely helpless...get on your knees and pray. Have faith in God, He has an amazing plan that we know nothing about.
As parents, we feel this way about so many things. When your child is sick you want so badly to remove their pain and just take it yourself. Whether it be physical or emotional pain...you just want to make it better. Aiden has been having a lot of trouble with his allergies. We thought that we were kind of keeping things in good condition until a week ago. I noticed a rash covering his body. Truthfully, this didn't concern me at first because he has always been prone to eczema. We would normally give him a bath, put his lotion on, send him to bed and in the morning all would be well. This time I got a little concerned because instead of getting better, it started to get worse. I took him to the doctor and of-course I left feeling so much better with a plan of action. You have to realize, I have all the faith in the world in his doctor and have never once second guessed her. That's just our story...unfortunately there are so many others that are so much worse than ours.
I have been seeing and hearing so many heart wrenching stories lately. Today, a mother lost her son in Afghanistan. He has been over there fighting for our freedom and now, the next time she will see him will be in his casket. I can't imagine how this mother must feel. I can't begin to put myself in her situation. I am a Christian and believe in God. I know that I would eventually find peace....but what about the days before? Are you angry, sad, in disbelief....uncontrollable.
Another story I read had an expectant mother getting her room all prepared for her child. She had bought so many things in preparation, as we all do. Her precious baby came to her stillborn. That sweet life went to heaven far too soon.
What about the parent that has a child addicted to drugs or alcohol? They feel completely helpless. I can say this from seeing it first hand....it's an uncontrollable sadness to NOT know how to help your loved one. Your child! The person that you gave birth to, that person that you watched learn to walk and talk....they are now struggling and fighting for their lives and you have to sit back and watch that destruction.
And as parents we will try everything in our power, using all resources available, to try to save that life. The only advice that I have for myself and all other parents is, when you feel completely helpless...get on your knees and pray. Have faith in God, He has an amazing plan that we know nothing about.
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
There are so many joys that come with pregnancy! Picking out the names, decorating the nursery, buying all the clothes and extras, the baby showers...wow...the list goes on and on! When we are young girls we think about having that perfect wedding and the perfect life with Prince Charming, how many kids we are going to have, being next door neighbors with our best friends, and growing our families together. During my pregnancy, I had that dream come true. I had already met MY Prince Charming, had the wedding of MY dreams, and now, I had a dear high school friend who was pregnant with me and had the same due date! It was amazing.
Our pregnancies were not at all ideal, to say the least. We were both sick the entire 9 months and both had some complications near the end leading to c-sections. No, it wasn't our ideal situations, but GOD had this all planned out. You see, HE made it to where we could lean on each other. We would text and facebook almost daily to encourage one another and listen to our pregnancy woes. LOL. I don't know what I would have done without her during that time. She just....got it. She understood exactly what I was feeling both physically and emotionally. Pregnancy can be a HUGE roller coaster and for the most part I loved the ride! God knew that we needed a friend. You see, we hadn't talked to each other in well over...10 years?? So it was definitely Him working His blessings.
Our sons are exactly 12 days apart. We have talked a lot since having our boys and our friendship has just grown. I am so blessed to have Brittany Duvall in my life and for her to just get me like no one does, other than my husband. Our friendship is one that will last a lifetime and grow into the young girls dream of raising our families together! I thank God for bringing her back into my life daily and can't wait to see how our son's grow up having a friendship that will, hopefully, last a lifetime!
Our pregnancies were not at all ideal, to say the least. We were both sick the entire 9 months and both had some complications near the end leading to c-sections. No, it wasn't our ideal situations, but GOD had this all planned out. You see, HE made it to where we could lean on each other. We would text and facebook almost daily to encourage one another and listen to our pregnancy woes. LOL. I don't know what I would have done without her during that time. She just....got it. She understood exactly what I was feeling both physically and emotionally. Pregnancy can be a HUGE roller coaster and for the most part I loved the ride! God knew that we needed a friend. You see, we hadn't talked to each other in well over...10 years?? So it was definitely Him working His blessings.
Our sons are exactly 12 days apart. We have talked a lot since having our boys and our friendship has just grown. I am so blessed to have Brittany Duvall in my life and for her to just get me like no one does, other than my husband. Our friendship is one that will last a lifetime and grow into the young girls dream of raising our families together! I thank God for bringing her back into my life daily and can't wait to see how our son's grow up having a friendship that will, hopefully, last a lifetime!
Sunday, April 22, 2012
The adventures of Super Aiden: The Tornado
Doesn't every little boy grow up thinking they are a super hero? Thanks to my husband and his obsession with all things Batman, Aiden has developed this super hero thing a little earlier than most boys! I love to watch him play and just recently my mother, being the wonderful Grammie that she is, bought Aiden some new pajama's with a Batman cape on the back! He loves them! This is where the story begins...
This morning, at 5am, Super Aiden, in his Batman pajama shirt, with cape, and sporting a diaper as his bottoms, was up and raring to go! First he started with his cars, then it was his legos, from there he moved on to his tractors and trucks that make the appropriate noises (ugh), then it was every utensil in the kitchen and bowls, then we ventured to our bedroom where he proceeded to pull every piece of dirty laundry out of his basket and put it in different places on the floor, and then it was the Mickey Mouse train! You know that every super hero has the gift of some sort of power...Aiden's is his super lungs! Imagine me following from room to room to remind a toddler that he needs to use his "inside voice" and to "keep it down". HA! That's funny!
I feel that I should let you in on a secret. I am OCD! This moving from toy to toy, room to room, was driving me bonkers and I was following behind "the tornado" trying to pick up! I should tell you that no matter how OCD I am, Aiden is not and this did not go well with him. Whatever I picked up, he would get back out and giggle! What a fun little game to play with mommy as she is pulling her hair out and talking to the voices in her head! LOL.
Needless to say, my friends, that at 8am the storm has finally calmed. The tornado is over and Super Aiden has gone back to his cave for a small nap. We are expecting more storms later but for now....the clean up begins! Have a good day and remember to have fun with your children! They are only small for a while. No matter how messy it gets...
This morning, at 5am, Super Aiden, in his Batman pajama shirt, with cape, and sporting a diaper as his bottoms, was up and raring to go! First he started with his cars, then it was his legos, from there he moved on to his tractors and trucks that make the appropriate noises (ugh), then it was every utensil in the kitchen and bowls, then we ventured to our bedroom where he proceeded to pull every piece of dirty laundry out of his basket and put it in different places on the floor, and then it was the Mickey Mouse train! You know that every super hero has the gift of some sort of power...Aiden's is his super lungs! Imagine me following from room to room to remind a toddler that he needs to use his "inside voice" and to "keep it down". HA! That's funny!
I feel that I should let you in on a secret. I am OCD! This moving from toy to toy, room to room, was driving me bonkers and I was following behind "the tornado" trying to pick up! I should tell you that no matter how OCD I am, Aiden is not and this did not go well with him. Whatever I picked up, he would get back out and giggle! What a fun little game to play with mommy as she is pulling her hair out and talking to the voices in her head! LOL.
Needless to say, my friends, that at 8am the storm has finally calmed. The tornado is over and Super Aiden has gone back to his cave for a small nap. We are expecting more storms later but for now....the clean up begins! Have a good day and remember to have fun with your children! They are only small for a while. No matter how messy it gets...
Saturday, April 21, 2012
Epic Fail :-(
Do you ever have those moments when you feel that you have failed the world? Well, I have those moments. I am sure, or hoping, that every mother does from time to time. You know...those moments when you just lose your patience or...maybe even you temper. *sigh*
Let me set the stage here. Every good story begins with a back drop right? You need the visual...the background. So, my son, Aiden, is teething and has been for a while. You know the look..sweet smile, drool dribbling down the chin, runny nose, running low grade fevers, the whole nine yards. On top of all of this he is now starting to get those evil, top molars. Oh yes...they have given him some trouble. I should say they are giving us ALL some trouble because with this wonderful gift that God has given us, our sweet boy has grown quite fond of biting! I know, I know...it's hard for me to believe too but it's the truth! lol.
So tonight while we are playing with his cars and trucks, he decides to give me one of his big, slobbery, perfect kisses! I have to admit, while I feel the need to go wash my face afterwards, they are the most precious part of my day and I would NOT give them up for anything. Anyways...on with my story...he gives me a kiss and then gets very excited and BAM! he takes a hunk out of my shoulder. He has broken skin before but I am going to be honest...this hurt. Now, a couple of weeks back, he had done the same thing only he had bit my hand and broken skin. My immediate reaction was to smack his leg and tell him a very stern "NO". Well, that smack resulted in me leaving a hand print on his little leg and me feeling like I should probably call the child abuse hotline on myself. No need to make me feel bad folks...I felt TERRIBLE. So tonight I chose to do things differently. After him biting me I put him in his time-out and explained to him that that hurt. I let him see the blood and that mommy was sad. He gave me hugs and went on his way. Everything is grand in the life of a one year old! Not five minutes later we were playing and he bent down and bit the top of my foot!!! *big sigh* I spanked him. I didn't leave a mark this time so I felt a little bit better about my life but....I just feel like I am failing him in some way!
I used to work at a daycare. I know that this is a question that parents have had for YEARS. What do you do with a child who bites? I know that he isn't just doing it out of meanness. His teeth are hurting. He has been biting everything that comes into his path, but what happens at a play date when he takes a chunk out of a poor, defenseless child?
So...parents....those of you that read this, I need your help. I want to teach Aiden all the things to mold him into a smart, confident, well mannered little boy....that doesn't bite!! lol. I am open to your suggestions and will be blogging about whether or not they work for this family.
As an end to my emotional rambling, I would like to say that on a business level, today ROCKED! I may have my first recruit with Thirty-One and am talking to three other ladies about the business opportunity! Yes my friends, if you have a goal and write it down to where it stares you in the face everyday...you WILL NOT fail! Have I done this with my business? Yes. Have I done it for my weight loss journey? Did it this evening! You can't stop this girl :-) Now...if I could just solve world hunger...
Let me set the stage here. Every good story begins with a back drop right? You need the visual...the background. So, my son, Aiden, is teething and has been for a while. You know the look..sweet smile, drool dribbling down the chin, runny nose, running low grade fevers, the whole nine yards. On top of all of this he is now starting to get those evil, top molars. Oh yes...they have given him some trouble. I should say they are giving us ALL some trouble because with this wonderful gift that God has given us, our sweet boy has grown quite fond of biting! I know, I know...it's hard for me to believe too but it's the truth! lol.
So tonight while we are playing with his cars and trucks, he decides to give me one of his big, slobbery, perfect kisses! I have to admit, while I feel the need to go wash my face afterwards, they are the most precious part of my day and I would NOT give them up for anything. Anyways...on with my story...he gives me a kiss and then gets very excited and BAM! he takes a hunk out of my shoulder. He has broken skin before but I am going to be honest...this hurt. Now, a couple of weeks back, he had done the same thing only he had bit my hand and broken skin. My immediate reaction was to smack his leg and tell him a very stern "NO". Well, that smack resulted in me leaving a hand print on his little leg and me feeling like I should probably call the child abuse hotline on myself. No need to make me feel bad folks...I felt TERRIBLE. So tonight I chose to do things differently. After him biting me I put him in his time-out and explained to him that that hurt. I let him see the blood and that mommy was sad. He gave me hugs and went on his way. Everything is grand in the life of a one year old! Not five minutes later we were playing and he bent down and bit the top of my foot!!! *big sigh* I spanked him. I didn't leave a mark this time so I felt a little bit better about my life but....I just feel like I am failing him in some way!
I used to work at a daycare. I know that this is a question that parents have had for YEARS. What do you do with a child who bites? I know that he isn't just doing it out of meanness. His teeth are hurting. He has been biting everything that comes into his path, but what happens at a play date when he takes a chunk out of a poor, defenseless child?
So...parents....those of you that read this, I need your help. I want to teach Aiden all the things to mold him into a smart, confident, well mannered little boy....that doesn't bite!! lol. I am open to your suggestions and will be blogging about whether or not they work for this family.
As an end to my emotional rambling, I would like to say that on a business level, today ROCKED! I may have my first recruit with Thirty-One and am talking to three other ladies about the business opportunity! Yes my friends, if you have a goal and write it down to where it stares you in the face everyday...you WILL NOT fail! Have I done this with my business? Yes. Have I done it for my weight loss journey? Did it this evening! You can't stop this girl :-) Now...if I could just solve world hunger...
Friday, April 20, 2012
You ready?
I am starting on another big journey. I am overweight. There is no reason to sit here and be embarrassed to say it, it's true. After I had Aiden I had my "ah-ha moment" where I knew that it was time for me to do something about this extra weight. I started Zumba and FELL IN LOVE. I was starting to see it changing my body, self-esteem, my marriage....but then, like I mentioned in the post before this one, Aiden got sick. Our life changed dramatically and one of the things that I had to let go of was Zumba. I went through such a time of depression. I don't even think most of my family knew how bad I was getting. I was home with this precious child, but I was mourning. I was mourning the loss of my life, friends that I thought I had, money, freedom... Please don't get me wrong here, I LOVE staying home with my son and no one on this earth can take care of him like I can. It was a no brainer for me to resign from my job. It just came at a bad time. Suddenly we went from being very comfortable to...barely making it. I cried for hours most days. I wondered how I could make this work for my family. I found Thirty-One and suddenly I didn't feel quite so bad. I started making money for my family, meeting new people, being Celebrated*Encouraged* and Rewarded by my fellow Thirty-One ladies! It put a smile back on my face!
I was still missing something in my life...well...a lot of somethings but one in particular. I NEEDED to go back to Zumba. I am happy to post today that I will be starting back on May 1st! I can't wait to get that much needed "mommy time" back in my life! Suddenly, I am celebrating life again. Things are starting to look up and God has provided. This last year is in the past. It is something that I have learned from and will not be taken for granted.
I will be posting every day about the journey of being a first time parent and the personal journey that I am getting ready for. I hope that you will join me on this journey of change. Changing my body, changing my attitude, changing my business, changing our income, changing my marriage, changing.....everything. I can't wait!!!
I was still missing something in my life...well...a lot of somethings but one in particular. I NEEDED to go back to Zumba. I am happy to post today that I will be starting back on May 1st! I can't wait to get that much needed "mommy time" back in my life! Suddenly, I am celebrating life again. Things are starting to look up and God has provided. This last year is in the past. It is something that I have learned from and will not be taken for granted.
I will be posting every day about the journey of being a first time parent and the personal journey that I am getting ready for. I hope that you will join me on this journey of change. Changing my body, changing my attitude, changing my business, changing our income, changing my marriage, changing.....everything. I can't wait!!!
Monday, March 19, 2012
Starting Over
Starting over is a very hard thing to do. I would like to start out by saying that I have grown by leaps and bounds since my son, Aiden, was born last year. When our little family of two became three. Aiden has brought such joy into our lives. I don't want to lead you on to think that everything has been perfect. It hasn't. Our small family, literally had to start over.
When Aiden was three months, I went back to work as an Assistant Director of a childcare facility in Louisville, Ky. He immediately developed the RSV virus after being there for 3 days. You can imagine how this made us feel. As young, first time parents, you barely know what you're doing, much less knowing how to handle your child being sick and hospitalized AND having to miss work. It's a L O N G, drawn out story, but we eventually had to take Aiden out of childcare and I resigned from my job in October 2011. We were terrified of what our future held. We had so many questions that were left unanswered. How will we provide for our family? Will this even work?
I went through this phase of depression that I can only describe as a "funk". I cried most of the day. I had this feeling of no self worth. I didn't think that I would ever be able to help provide for my family and I was worried about that. I am not one to sit on my toosh and do nothing all day and let my husband do everything for me. That's not how I was raised. I have a strong work ethic that I got from both of my parents and I am proud of that. For those of you that have had depression, you know that it isn't something to play with. It truly leaves you feeling hopeless. Now, I have always been a Christian and have always been a "believer", but, there is one thing that I have always struggled with with God. I have never been able to give Him full control. In January, I finally had to make this a priority in my life. I felt that I was hitting rock bottom. I remember going to our bedroom and falling to my knees and just crying into my hands. I prayed hard to God that night. Harder then I have ever prayed before. I asked God to please show me what He wanted for me in my life. I asked Him to show me, slap me in the face with it Lord! I NEEDED Him to take the burden's of everyday life away from me and take action. I was ready to follow His lead. I couldn't do this by myself anymore.
Friends, this is what I mean when I say that I "started over". I went from being a wife, a new mommy, having a career to just being at home with my son. Just being a mommy and a wife. That was hard for me but now, now it is SO rewarding. I now have all of my titles back because I have found the career that God wants for me. I found a biblical based company to be a part of that I LOVE. I am HAPPY being a mommy and wife. God has so much in store for our little family and I am just a long for the ride. No need in being in control. God has that taken care of. We are starting over and this time, everything is going to be all right because we are in HIS hands.
When Aiden was three months, I went back to work as an Assistant Director of a childcare facility in Louisville, Ky. He immediately developed the RSV virus after being there for 3 days. You can imagine how this made us feel. As young, first time parents, you barely know what you're doing, much less knowing how to handle your child being sick and hospitalized AND having to miss work. It's a L O N G, drawn out story, but we eventually had to take Aiden out of childcare and I resigned from my job in October 2011. We were terrified of what our future held. We had so many questions that were left unanswered. How will we provide for our family? Will this even work?
I went through this phase of depression that I can only describe as a "funk". I cried most of the day. I had this feeling of no self worth. I didn't think that I would ever be able to help provide for my family and I was worried about that. I am not one to sit on my toosh and do nothing all day and let my husband do everything for me. That's not how I was raised. I have a strong work ethic that I got from both of my parents and I am proud of that. For those of you that have had depression, you know that it isn't something to play with. It truly leaves you feeling hopeless. Now, I have always been a Christian and have always been a "believer", but, there is one thing that I have always struggled with with God. I have never been able to give Him full control. In January, I finally had to make this a priority in my life. I felt that I was hitting rock bottom. I remember going to our bedroom and falling to my knees and just crying into my hands. I prayed hard to God that night. Harder then I have ever prayed before. I asked God to please show me what He wanted for me in my life. I asked Him to show me, slap me in the face with it Lord! I NEEDED Him to take the burden's of everyday life away from me and take action. I was ready to follow His lead. I couldn't do this by myself anymore.
Friends, this is what I mean when I say that I "started over". I went from being a wife, a new mommy, having a career to just being at home with my son. Just being a mommy and a wife. That was hard for me but now, now it is SO rewarding. I now have all of my titles back because I have found the career that God wants for me. I found a biblical based company to be a part of that I LOVE. I am HAPPY being a mommy and wife. God has so much in store for our little family and I am just a long for the ride. No need in being in control. God has that taken care of. We are starting over and this time, everything is going to be all right because we are in HIS hands.
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